urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:a_promise_kept cause i won't listen to them tonight steve 2009-01-12T06:44:29Z urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:a_promise_kept:27556 2009-01-12T06:44:29Z 2009-01-12T06:44:29Z i'm not sure where we're going and i'm not sure if we're going together but i do know is that i've never moved this fast and i'm not sure what direction we're going. if it's in a step in the right direction, i think it could be the first time i'm really happy in two years. if it isn't, i honestly don't know what i'm going to do, i don't know if me or my heart could take much more of this. i don't need another friend. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:a_promise_kept:27177 2008-12-13T00:36:24Z 2008-12-13T00:36:24Z past 2 days have been heartbreaking urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:a_promise_kept:26971 2008-11-27T09:55:41Z 2008-11-27T09:55:41Z do you remember how bad you wanted to get out? do you remember all the things you used to say? 2 more years of this fucking town... how would you live? how could you possibly bear through that. how shitty would 2 more years here be. well, 2 years later and you are in love with who you are and i dont know if i remember your name. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:a_promise_kept:26724 2008-11-27T09:39:29Z 2008-11-27T09:39:29Z i dont want you to forgive me, i just want you to understand urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:a_promise_kept:26575 2008-10-26T05:39:35Z 2008-10-26T05:39:35Z i gave up on you. i dont even think you're cool anymore and i'm not quite sure what you're problem is. i thought you were the opposite of everyone else... you act like you are but i mean i think you're just trying to act better than everyone. everyone tries to act different but in the end they're all the same pretty much sums up a lot about you urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:a_promise_kept:26341 2008-09-16T06:30:45Z 2008-09-16T06:30:45Z fuck, please take me back two years, please take me back two years, please take me back two years, please urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:a_promise_kept:26010 2008-08-19T06:00:39Z 2008-08-19T06:00:39Z tonight is one of those nights where you i tear myself apart with my thoughts. it makes me sad in my head thinking about stuff but i just cant seem to stop and thats why these nights are just the worst. i guess its the day that leads up to the night and today was hopeful. it was probably the happiest i've been in about a year. it just felt like there was a ray of light and the end of the tunnel and this past year i gave up hope for ever finding that ray of light. than i see glimpse of it and as night time comes it seems like it slipped away. i feel like i only get through to you for a little bit of time like i only have a certain window of time of oppurtunity to tell you how i feel and for you to understand. i think i lost that once again. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:a_promise_kept:25828 2008-07-24T06:09:39Z 2008-07-24T06:09:39Z I came home and there was some hard stuff happening with my family. On a couple different days, I wrote "love" on my arm. It was for me, a reminder I guess, and I decided I was okay with people seeing it. Love is a pretty good thing for people to see. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:a_promise_kept:25519 2008-07-24T04:57:00Z 2008-07-24T04:57:00Z sorry for playing the dickhead role and all you ever really needed was a hand to hold urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:a_promise_kept:25317 2008-07-21T19:01:14Z 2008-07-21T19:01:14Z the one thing that i'll never get is how you turned out like all the rest urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:a_promise_kept:25062 2008-06-16T18:20:10Z 2008-06-16T18:20:10Z i hate sneaky, fucking slutty girls. people like you never change, you're a disgrace. i dont want you in my life or any of my friends life. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:a_promise_kept:24579 2008-06-16T03:13:38Z 2008-06-16T03:13:38Z i can't really trust anyone but myself. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:a_promise_kept:24381 2008-04-23T04:42:41Z 2008-04-23T04:42:41Z life isn't too bad if you look at the big picture urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:a_promise_kept:24220 2008-04-01T04:41:27Z 2008-04-01T04:41:27Z even after all those guys come and go through your life, i've always been there for you. maybe one day you'll realize no one is as good for you as i am urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:a_promise_kept:24004 2008-03-19T21:13:04Z 2008-03-19T21:13:04Z inside her room, she paints me blue urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:a_promise_kept:23616 2008-03-15T23:06:22Z 2008-03-15T23:06:22Z you lie to much to be a good person urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:a_promise_kept:23344 2008-03-15T04:59:15Z 2008-03-15T04:59:15Z i've officially hit rock bottom urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:a_promise_kept:23195 2008-03-08T07:50:56Z 2008-03-08T07:50:56Z i hope you're doing well wherever you are urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:a_promise_kept:22868 2008-02-15T06:42:05Z 2008-02-15T06:42:05Z i remember when you threw me away without thinking twice so it's funny i still always think about you urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:a_promise_kept:22759 2008-02-09T18:01:07Z 2008-02-09T18:01:07Z people don't change and that makes this so hard urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:a_promise_kept:22456 2008-01-09T16:30:50Z 2008-01-09T16:30:50Z if you like me for real tell me, if you don't tell me, just fucking say something. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:a_promise_kept:22217 2008-01-09T03:40:37Z 2008-01-09T03:40:37Z whenever i like someone, it just seems they never like me as much as i like them. i might be just stupid and not seeing right but i dont think so. everything always gets fucked and i just fall for people too fast. im like a girl. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:a_promise_kept:21930 2007-12-23T07:57:23Z 2007-12-23T07:57:23Z you're a fucking fagget urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:a_promise_kept:21716 2007-12-03T06:05:23Z 2007-12-03T06:05:23Z promise of redemption - how fast it's wierd that i went to philadelphia and got nothing acomplished. sitting on a bench freezing cold at night kind of made me think alot. i kind of feel like its the story of my life. i'd drive 2 hours to go see someone and i really didn't get anything in return, i didn't even get to see them. all i ended up was with an empty tank of gas, a cold, and a 400 dollar ticket but at least i had graney, i don't know what would have happened if i didn't. see the thing is my friends have been insanely good to me since i could ever remember. so when something happens and they're not there, it's not normal. they've been so good and set the bar so high that when they fuck up or do something that isn't good, it's magnified and it seems 10 times worse than it is. except this time, this is probably the worst thing any of them have ever done to me. things are never going to be the same and i told you that but you'd rather fuck some lame ass girl for a little while that you haven't even known for a month than be my friend and not act upon a feeling you have. i don't know what i'm going to do, everyone knows this isn't right and knows the situation but i can't loose my bestfriend over this. i don't know how this is going to shape up, i have a feeling things aren't going to be the same but for times like philadelphia, i need a bestfriend more than anything. you were a rock for 12 years and i need that still. come to your senses bro. you can call me a bad friend and talk behind my back all you want but im not going to do the same to you. i need you man, you're my boy still. it sucks that i'm fucked because of some girl i haven't even known for half a year. solid. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:a_promise_kept:21391 2007-12-03T05:51:38Z 2007-12-03T05:51:38Z damn bro